Title:	why are you leaving
Date:	Monday, December 4th, 2006 — 7:21 pm
Security:	public
Location:	wandering in my thought
Tunes:	meant to live//switchfoot
Mood:	mixed emotions

because i want to.. were his words. i dont understand people sometimes. one second you think everything all good and then the next second theyre moving miles away from you. i really dont get it. im confused. okay so this is what happened. last weekend i hung out with my friend Brandon [not the one from florida] well anyways we hung out and he told me the he was moving back to vegas becuz he was sick of all the crap here and the only reason he wanted to stay was becuz of me. well i made him promise me the he would stay here, he did... today at school he surprised me. walking down the hall. i jumped on him and gave him a big hug. thats when he broke the news to me. im leaving. i wouldnt let go of him until he finally said dont worry ill be back. i let go and watched him walk out the door. i started crying, i let it all out. thankfully i had two of my good friends with me. the rest of the day sucked. i couldnt stop thinking about it. but when i got home he called me asking if i wanted to hang out before he left. i told him of course. well now im sitting here waiting for him to call me back. if he doesnt call me back i will never forgive him. this could be the last time ill ever see him again. life just completely sucks somtimes i swear. but now as im sitting here im looking on the bright side. im really excited becuz i got asked to a dance. i never got asked before i just kinda went. lol. well anyways, my friend Anthony asked me to go to his snowcoming. his mom really likes me =) i love his family they are so nice. OOh and as of this weekend also, me and him found out that our families kno each other. =) how cool. well anyways. im just really siked. =P speaking of Anthony i gotta call him back.


TA TA FOR NOW!

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LiiTTLe RaSCaL 

Title:	Untitled
Date:	Saturday, September 9th, 2006 — 6:06 pm
Security:	public
Location:	once again, a chair
Tunes:	i write sins not tragedies by panic at the disco
Mood:	hopelessly lost

girls advanced conditioning, all we do in that class is work-out. im soo tired from working-out. my legs are so sore to the point that i can barely walk, it hurts. thats only the beginning to my horrible weekend. 

how do i start? well i already told you that im sore sooo.. next thing from my check list, seeing kyle. i still miss him. i hate seeing him everyday and not even being able to say hello, it just kills me inside. soooo i tried making my weekend better by finally being able to see natalie and hang out  after a week of not being able to see each other. well that wasnt bad, we walked home from school and then hung out at her house, around 5:30 we started getting ready to go to a football game. we go to the game, i got to hang out with friends and my boyfriend. we hand fun for awhile until natalie started walking away and ditching me, i didnt kno what to do so i asked her what was wrong and all she would say was that nothing was wrong but i kne better.  that whole situation was nothing but then i saw him, kyle, i had two thoughts running in my head; go strangle him, hes hurt you so much. and, just walk away. well anyways, i ended up walking away, crying. i started thinking about how good our relationship was and how he ended it and then went out with a girl i completely despised then stop talking to me. having someone do that makes me feel like im a nobody. or even worse... nothing. 

well. that was a smooth difficulties. i went back to natalies and she had the biggest attitude ever, so i went outside to get away and get some fresh air, well after walking for a bit my leg gave up, and i fell to the ground. i just sat there for a minute, trying to get my energy back. natalie comes up to me asking me what i was doing in her mean tone. i told my leg was hurting, it didnt seem like she cared, all she could care about was what her brother was shouting out and blamed it on me. i asked her not to accuse me nicely because i wasnt in the mood, she walked away. i wanted to go home but natalie kept on tell her dad and my friend adam not to take me home. then, i get a random phone call from my mom, shes yelling at me saying that i better get back to natalies house, which i thought was funny because i was already there. ive been there the whole time. well apparently my mom didnt like the way i was talking to her so she said that my dad was on his way  to pick me up. i didnt want to leave. i didnt want to go home. i didnt want to be at natalies. i had no other options but listen to what other people told me what to do. [ this whole thing maybe not sound like no big deal but im not explaining everything ] let just i was crying to the point that i wanted to take my life away, and it takes a lot for me to get that bad. the rest of my night was basically yelling and saying how bad i am and how i need to change. i went to bed.

now today. is my dads birthday. everything was better between me and my parents so we ened up going out to breakfast. long story short, i ruined breakfast and my dads birthday with my mouth, once again. i honestly dont mean to have that bad of a mouth, im really trying not to. its hard to do when your in a family with nothing but smart-mouths. well anyways i apologized. everything was better. we came home. sat down. watched some t.v. while doing little projects. dad was playing on the computer, mom was making cards, josh was building a ship from a kit, and i was wood burning a rose on a little scrap piece i had left over. it took me 3 hours to get that rose done, it looks okay.. i guess. now im just sitting here wondering with i can do for the rest of the night besides sit around and do nothing like i normally do. i was thinkging about buring another picture. it kills time and is fun and relaxing to do. 

idn. i think im gunna go do that. 

TA TA FOR NOW!

Title:	I Missed A Few Days
Date:	Tuesday, September 5th, 2006 — 3:47 pm
Security:	public
Location:	A CHAIR!!!
Tunes:	Show Stopping by Danity Kane
Mood:	chipper

SOOOO... i just basically hung out with some friends. and got asked out by Brad. ANNND.....

TODAY: it was my first day of school. i got to meet all my teachers and see who is all in my classes. im pretty happy with all my classes, except the fact my ex is in one of my classes and i feel really uncomfortable. 

REASON WHY: we were in a "serious" relationship and his parent had said that they had to move because they can afford to keep paying their house bills so when it came time for them to leave he broke up with me because he didnt want to be in a long distance relationship, which i can understand, but not when you end up not moving. now hes going out with this girl at my school which lives farther away from him. [WHATEVER] people wonder why boys suck, thats why!

ANYWHOO. im sittin here listenin to evanescence new song "call me when your sober" with my bestest friend i was telling you about [natalie]. 

I FINALLY GOT TO GO TANNING AGAIN!!! lol. [randomness]

WEEEEELLLL. i think ima get going. i will talk to you later! buh-byezz!